O_o random poem...

ok so yeah i abandoned my computer more or less....well...not so much my computer as anything related to google at all after a certain point...
but this was the outcome of it all...

A Blank Page

a blank sheet of paper
thats what sits in front of me
it leaves me with endless options
of what is shall be
shall it be a balled up mess
my failed vision inside
or shall it address
all my views that i hide
shall it be my canvas
that which my mind and brush paint so fine
shall it be a schematic
a flawless and perfect design
shall it be a title page?
or perhaps it is page fifty three
a blank page with endless options
what ever shall it be
shall it be my lifetime?
shall it be my mind?
it is my inspiration
without it the world is blind
so as for this paper what shall it be
it shall be the worlds window
it shall be how the world sees me

finallized idea

ok so this is what im going to do with this blog(yes im posting from in school, i discovered i could earlier this week) anyways, as soon as i get the chance im going to get out all the poems i have ever written and have a copy of still and im going to type them up and post them, this blog is going to be a complete(almost) record of my poetry.

(no title) (2)

so i have told of my darker poems but never gave an example, well the horrid mood im in has inspired me to write a new one...
the dark poem i am inspired to create, enjoy my darkerside

the fire around me
the sweat rolling down my face
the demons laugh around me
bc of you i fell from grace
i turned to a dark path
i ended my kinder ways
a stoic view on torture
the end of my happiness no longer far away

the blood pumping through my veins
almost boiling as of late
bc of you i endure this anger
because of this, forgiveness will come to late
i do not know why u keep making this happen
others say perhaps u want us to end
if this be the case then just say it (word has been edited out due to various reasons)
so that i can remember how to fend

perhaps we will ahve to choose before this is all over
perhaps it is to late for me to save a thing
i wont slavage much out of it if anything happens
because i wont even try, for my heart will no longer sing
this hell is done or perhaps just beginning,
so let the hell fire sorround me on all sides
bc of my issues i dont know what to do,
and now all this confusion attacks my heart till it cries

sick and tired of it!

pls forget what it said b4, i was having an "i hate everything that has and that has ever had and that will ever have a heatbeat" moment lol

(no title) (1)

this poem isnt done yet and has no title yet lol. actually i may never finish it, i may just keep adding onto it, and make it my longest and fave poem. afterall my poems are the equivalent of my journal, and my life keeps moving forward and my memories keep stretching on, so why shouldnt at least one of my poems? nah, ill just finish it with the same purpose as when i started it, writing it for my awesome gf lol

what has already been
what is stiull yet to come
acting in the present
hearing the wind hum
standing with you
holding your hand
my arms around you
together we stand

together we stand
our hearts becoming one
both of us unique
every second so fun
freedom of thought
free to be who we are
free to fall in love
on our journey so far

on our journey so far
so long yet so short
the ship has set sail
and still moves from the port
our journey still continues
where does the path end?
perhaps i already know
if we continue our trend

if we continue our trend
we will surely go far
for you inspire me so greatly
you are brighter than any star
and what of your thoughts?
for those i cannot see
whatever they truly are
you appear to mirror me

you appear to mirror me
few differences i can see
they are so slight
it almost frightens me
and is that bad?
[why] certainly not (personal note, to be exact its unexpectedly pleasant in my mind lol)
it brings us closer no doubt
inspiring each thought

inspiring each thought
creating each line
i write these words for you
as i attempt to shine
and i do shine for you (personal note,alot of random notes, shining implying living to be there for)
and you shine in return (personal note, shining as always there when needed)
we shine for each other
from one another we learn

from one another we learn (personal note, god this poem is long)
never to forget a thing
the lessons of love
how our hearts currently sing
they sing of the past
the present and future as well
withstanding all obstacles in our way
unphased by the swell

unphased by the swell
many trials overcome
endless trials yet to pass
to their fires we are numb (personal note, FIRE!!!!!! sorry somewhat of a pyro :-P)
no challenge is to great
our souls complementing one another
perfectly aligned
each giving our heart to the other (personal note, wow that was cliche)

each giving our heart to the other
staying hand in hand as we walk
uncaring of opinions
yet quietly we always talk (personal note, perhaps bc i love to whisper/talk lol)
standing up for one another (personal note,not really but so what it adds to the flow, deal with it) though unrequired to this day (personla note, what was the point of that last personal note)
knowing that you are there for me
i know you are never far away

i know you are never far away
that you are always by my side
i am the same for you
due to how i feel inside
i am so very lucky
to say that i am yours
to say that you are mine
for you my heart truly soars (personal note, that line shows up in alot of my poems.....)

for you my heart truly soars
you raise me up so high
working not to mess up
for you i really try
so let us ignore our troubles
let us forget all our fears
let us continue to ignore all other thoughts (personal note, thoughts of other ppl)
your smile truly cheers

your smile truly cheers
every second with you so great
a smile brought to my face
time from you i truly hate (personal note,it means time away from you,i just forgot a word on purpose)
so hold my hand as this is read
put your arms around my waist
we take each our places by each others side
let us keep our pace

(thats all i feel like typing right now lol)

1st post

ok so yeah this is really random obviously, just as the blog is labeled,
this is the first poem i ever wrote.......i cant believe i actually found it,

Through the darkness
i see your face
shining like
one million suns
lighting my soul
you took away
the hatred in my soul
without knowing
that you had.

ok and for my most recent poem, i thank the ppl who work in the crabbing industry for the inspiration for this, its dedicated to all of you who risk ur lives kingcrabbing

Take a deep breath
let the cold air scrath your throat
always out at sea
hoping your ship will stay afloat
fighting to stay aboard
against the waves and the wind
throwing cages out
to your job forever pinned
the empty graves along the shore
you cry for the loss of one another
yet you all keep going back out
even when losing a sister or brother
your loved ones shedding tears each day
always afraid you wont return to their arms
the dangers of your proffesions have no end
not even when lessened by cautions and alarms
though you are careful
it is never enough
your life is always at risk
your job is far beyond tough.